27 January 2012, 6:30 am
Okay first off, i just want to thank all of the people that are going to read this and answer RESPECTFULLY. I hate disrespect. My parents are abusive and im sick of dealing with it. My ex-girlfriends hate me. I feel like i want to die. My life is hitting a low, and im spiraling into a serious depression. Okay, My parents have been abusive from the start. From when i was born until now. My biological father left me, my mom is a drug-head, and me step-dad is a complete douchebag, and i hate his guts. My step-dad comes home everyday from work, where he takes calls for customer service at Dixie RV in hammond. He complains that his job his so very hard, and that everyone is an @$$hole that he talks to over the phone. (WELL OF COURSE THEY WILL! THEYRE CALLING BECAUSE THEYRE PISSED DUMBASS!!) Anyway, he comes home ready to just tear off someones head, and the only victems around are me my mom and my brother. So he yells at me all day long to do everything, clean, cook, you name it, i do it. My mom on the other hand, is a druggie, so all she does all day is pop pills and shit herself. Then when she tries to clean, she ends up just messing everything up. Now, that crap i guess i could put up with, but being beat almost every night... No. Im sick of it. So now you know my "home life". (no much of a life, i can assure you) Now i want you to know my social life. When i am at school, or anywhere else, i mostly just keep to myself, because i am VERY, VERY, anti-social. What can i say, i hate people. Anyway, I try to keep to myself, and theres always one girl out of like, a group of 4, that wants to date me or likes me or whatever. Now, im okay with that, but when we break up a month later because i "wont talk about myself", thats getting a bit ridiculous. And its always the same. We date, we snuggle, talk about her, what does she like, does she like me, she says she loves me, i say i love her also, she wants to know what im like, i say this IS what im like, she says im not opening up to her, she gets pissed, ignores me, i ignore her back, she dumps me. Thats how it goes, every single time. So far im on a streak of 8. Not dating anyone now. I think the next girl that asks me out, ill just flat out say no. Im sick of life and i dont know what to do. Every night is like a temptation. I want to die, but i want to live also. I couldnt leave my friends, (only have 2 friends) and i dont like being mean to anyone. I feel, i touch, cry, i hurt, but why cant i be like anyone else? Why cant i just be a normal person? Why do I have take this burden of sorrow and shame and pain? Why cant i just find love and be happy? If you think you know, just leave an answer. Try not to post a 4th grade please, im being very serious, and if i cant get a serious answer, im going to just say screw it and commit suicide.... Read More »
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